What hides in the dark

So we’ve been together since she was 15 and I can honestly say that it’s been the best years of her life. You see I’m a pleaser and whenever she felt down, I was always there to pick up the pieces. Like all relationships it took awhile until I got to know who she truly was, Tania, my sweet girl, she has always been that pure force that I haven’t had the privilege of meeting. It’s not everyday you meet a girl so sweet that they make you question yourself. That’s just what she did and I loved her for it. Actually I was confused by it. She was this way when I wanted to be that way, I couldn’t figure out how we mesh d in the first place. Now that I think about it we met when she was young. Already I was in love with her. I wanted to be inside her so bad that I just went for it. At the age of 5, I figured a way to persuade her. I just wanted to touch her. I wanted it so much that I didn’t care that it was wrong. Her parents weren’t ever around so what did that have to do with me? Hell they left me with her. She didn’t even know what I was doing but I can speak for the both of us that she enjoyed it and I know she did whether she will admit it or not and think it’s wrong I knew it was right because I knew from that moment we would be together forever whether she’d like it or not and she knew not to tell anybody about us or else….she would be the one to get in trouble.

She’s 16 years old and she’s promiscuous as fuck and that’s the way I liked her. She wanted to soil her royal oats before she hit 18 and I didn’t care because I wanted to have as much experience with her too. We could experience together and boy did we! She was my dirty little secret and I was hers. She wouldn’t be afraid to let me dip in her and when we were consumed by each other she would admit her love for me. I knew it was real when she was turned on when her friends admitted their love for me too.

Tania’s 22 and she thinks that we took our toll. What the fuck does she mean? When we’re together we are great even though she has those moments of doubt how all the people she loves is all the people she doesn’t want to be happy because  she doesn’t feel happy. I tell her that you have me but she insists that I make matters worse. Matters worse? You can’t leave me now, we’re in too deep and the hell you leave me! I will make you weak, I will rip up your self worth, I will weaken your body and give you chills that you will not function until you let me be apart of you and your life again. You can’t do this to me!

You say you want to get serious with your life and that I hang out too much but what does that all mean? You try to break it off but you sneak around with me every chance you get. You need me! Who are you without me? I got you questioning and you should question because you will remember that you are nothing. And tell those friends of yours to fuck off. They insist that they have relatives with similar relationships and that you need to get out but they don’t know you like I do. I think no one does. I KNOW no one does. Because I know how you really feel….you can stand your friends, you think they are better than you. Sometimes you go out of your way to make your friends look bad in the eyes of the others. Sometimes you just wish they would just suffer because why should you suffer alone. You can’t stand hearing accomplishments while you rot getting your so called degree. You also distance yourself from the family because they didn’t like “us” together either and I tell you that you don’t need them anyways. You justify to yourself that you made the right choice I affirm that choice. Because one sip with me reminds you of why we are together in the first place. And I ain’t going nowhere. I love you.

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What hides in the dark

One thought on “What hides in the dark

  1. midnightwriterporvida says:

    ***I had written an amazing praise of this post and then I pressed Backspace and it all disappeared but I will try my best to remember it haha***….

    AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Beautiful personification!!!! I loved the tiny, subtle hints throughout the piece, and the ending was spectacular. The narrator is unreliable because they aren’t showing us the whole story. It reminds me of Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov in that sense… I really enjoyed the way you made it seem like a romantic relationship where one partner is emotionally abusive, playing on the others insecurities and fears… Poison to the body, the mind, and the soul!!!! Magnifique! hahaha

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